Wake me up when this ends.

I am so over all of this. I'm trying so hard to remain positive, but why should this one work? Because we paid for it? Because we can't afford another? Because this is our last chance? Because after nearly 5 years, surely it's out turn?

I feel nothing, I have a scan & bloods on Weds, and have a feeling I'll also be starting on the menopur that night. Which then means we are on a countdown. A countdown to what? Excitement? Heartbreak? I just want a baby. I don't want any of this bullshit that comes with it.